Well, Precious, your dad passed into summerland last month. He was almost 96. It was sad to see him go but at the same time a blessing. He was in really poor health. It seems like the family is falling apart. There used to be 7 of you and now there are only 3. I hope I am next on the list. I miss you so very much and long to be with you again. The dogs are fine and so far I am keeping the house and yard together. Although it gets harder all the time. I think this old age is for the birds. Okay maybe I am wiser but unable to do the things I used to do. Just wanted to feel in touch with you and now it's on to housework. I love and miss you.

Hello My Love, a year ago today we were hanging xmas lights and decorating the tree. The first time ever you helped decorate the tree! So of course I never took it down. Did you know that I would have to remember this day for the rest of my life? Were you somehow aware that I would need the wonderful memories I have of us laughing and doing the fun and crazy things we did? Did you have the feeling that the next day you would be gone from our lives? I miss you more every day. But am so lucky to have had you to share my life with. You brought not only happiness but meaning to my life. I can't believe that I ever lived my life without you being in it. Even though now it's only in memory. The memories are the reason I can keep going. You are the most awesome man I know and I am so very blessed to have had you. All my love to you and thank you for sharing my life and filling it with such joy.

 Here it is Monday. I have ordered a Yule present for the kid, drinking coffee and wondered if I will ever get all the dead crickets swept up. I have such an over abundence of them. Had to sweep the kitchen before I could even make coffee. I will be glad for winter so maybe they will go away. Have the Halloween decorations up. Course, I leave the witch flag and some witches up year round. The neighbors think I am insane. I won't tell them they are right. (cackle cackle)

 I have been thinking of you alot. Still miss you so very much but feel like you are here with me. I can feel your prescence, smell you, even hear your voice at times. I love it when I see the leaves rustle on the path to the shop and see the dogs, with tails wagging, running along. They follow right to the shop door and then look around wondering why you didn't open the shop door.

I found you a Yule present Saturday. Put it under the tree with last years, (I never took the tree down since you helped decorate it).

I am planning a ritual for Samhain and you will, of course, be a big part of it. I keep seeing shadows of a black form out of the corner of my eye. I assume Docque has come back to me also. I love the dogs here but Docque was such a special girl. And I imagine she thinks she belongs here with us. And she does.

I finally decided that I can survive here until you come to take me to be with you. It isn't easy but I have come to be at peace with the quiet house and empty bed. I know that you will be here to collect me in your time and I am content to wait for you. I heard a comment that fits us perfectly. "A beautiful relationship only comes once in a lifetime. I have already had mine." And my love that was with you. Counting the days until I can join  you again. I love you with all my heart.

 

I miss you most upon each Samhain
When the boundary turns to sheer
I wait until the veil is parted
At the ending of the year.
Sweet spirit, as you walk among us
At the tolling of this eve
I see your face beyond the sunset
And hear your voice upon the breeze.

In the glowing of the candle
From the shadow on the wall
I watch for you in every movement
And hear your footsteps in the hall.
Can you sit and spend the evening
As the portal opens wide?
Ancestral dead, I bid you welcome,
Most recent dead, I pray, abide.

When you come I sense your presence
I put my hand out in the air
A moment, then, we stand united
Palm to palm while waiting there.
I miss you most upon each Samhain
When the boundary turns to sheer
We share these hours until the dawning
Then bid farewell until next year.

by David O. Norris,
"Upon Each Samhain,"
copyright 1988

 

Well, My Love, you've been gone nine months now. Somedays it seems like forever and others like only yesterday.

i long for the time I can join you. I miss you so terribly. I still sleep with your robe. And it still smells like you. I wear your shirts and carry the socks they took off you in the ER in my purse. See I am a crazy old lady, crazy over losing you.

I am going to see your family next week. Will be good and horrible all at the same time. I will enjoy seeing them. But will miss you all the more. I only wish I could have seen Mary before she joined you. I did tell her I was coming right before she left. We were excited to see each other. We talked of you so often and I miss that. I told her to hug your neck when she saw you and to tell you I loved you. I'm sure she did just that.

All is well here. The insurance is putting on a new roof. Hail damage. Yard finally stopped growing. Hot and dry. The house is still empty without your laughter and you calling Hey, Granny.

Dogs are fine. Cat is still onery. I love you...I miss you...I want to be with you.